Technology

I can't even imagine what would be living without technology.
Recently I've been passing by for a hard time. I lost my father last year and it's been really hard deal with all. Probably because I lost my father exactly one month after I got married, so the time of my life that is supposed to be the best time ever have become the saddest and worst time ever!
I don't feel like doing anything that I'm supposed to feeling like. In addition, sometimes I feel guilty to feel happy or excited about anything. Usually I think "my father is Dead, how come am I exited about college?" Or " my father is Dead how come am I exited about having sex?", Or "my father is Dead, how come am I smiling!?".
Ok, but what technology has to do with all that?? I saved the last conversations and audios that my father sent before he got sick and it has been helping me a lot... Sometimes when I miss his voice I can hear again, and sometimes when I miss his smile I can see a picture of him, sometimes when I miss his ridiculous way to dance I watch his videos dancing, when I miss his way to write I read his texts. It all has been helping me to deal with that pain. It's so hard to get over it. It's so hard to keep going when I feel a sadness that immobilizes my entire body!!! I know that God is with me and that everything has a purpose. And God was so good to me... When my heart desired to stay at USA forever God said to me "don't do that, I have a purpose for you at Brazil!" And, thanks God, I've obeyed! So I could spent the last 3 years of my father with him. I could play, live, stay, fight, reconciliated, laugh.... All this stuff with him. And that was a great opportunity! And for all that I'll be always grateful!